Wednesday, October 28, 2015

False Assumptions

People assume that I have a lot of friends because I get along with a lot of people, but I'm the last to be invited by most people. I'll hear that a group of people that I thought were friends went out without even asking me, and it hurts. Or I'll be the one that tries to make plans and out of the few people that reply, only one or two will actually show up.

It was more of a problem in high school and some parts of college, I've basically stopped talking to the people that treated me like a filler friend. So I have my close group of friends now, and I feel a lot more wanted.


I walk around with a purpose, keep an attitude of confidence wherever I go, I'm friendly and sociable with people I pass, making light-hearted small talk about the weather in elevators.

Inside, I'm a nervous wreck, no idea what I'm doing, constantly questioning how stupid I must look to people around me. The thing that keeps me going, though, is the thought that the only thing worse than constantly worrying about how I appear to people, is people knowing that I'm worried about how I appear to them.

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Mozilla Should try to Mind its own Business

People are hating on the fact that a non profit organization is donating a significant amount of money to OSS which does not even have to help them in any way ? Or does the fact that their products have bugs in them stop them from doing any good ?

As has been said already, it's about priorities:

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Music is the greatest soothe to my Soul

Whenever I get sad, happy, mad or all in all 'Emotional' I tune up the music in my ears to the situation that I am in.. and right now its this song that fits my psychic vibrations.

All it takes is to find resonance within, close my eyes and hit play on my phone. Its like escaping from reality, far from everyone and everything that matters. For some its music, for some its meditation and so on and so forth but for me its a mixture of both music and meditation.

Go ahead, try it on.. it works for me. Maybe it'll be same for you too :)

You're my only One !

You've given me everything I needed in my life, the motivation to thrive and better myself for a cause. You're the sole reason I do what I do anymore, I watch your progress in life through the social media, knowing you're doing great in life brings me so much happiness.

Though with the strains in my heart for you, I know I'll never move on from what we've once had, I'll hold onto those memories until the day I die. You are the inspiration of my life, the reason I want to become successful, everything I do, I do for you. You don't know anything I've done since our departure, but I know you're living well without me and that's all I care about, your happiness. Stay well, till I see you again in the far future.

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Dusherra Celebrations at Office

When I entered the floor today, I could see cabins decorated with flowers (real ones) and well preserved for something that was yet to happen. At first I wasn't sure what was happening? Later realized we are celebrating 'Dusherra'.

Till mid day we were busy with stuff, later we were taken to training whilst in middle of it, people started getting excited. News broke out that there would be some sort of skit on account for Dusherra.

I could see the glimpses of people getting ready with costumes. The girl sitting beside me was playing (Sita's) role. She seemed super excited...when I asked her what's her role? Sadly there wasn't any skit except for ramp walk. Most of my friends participated in the ramp wearing jaw dropping costumes.

Everything was great today except for the morning and evening part. It came as a surprise when I got to know that I am assigned a different cab and my friends were in different cab. (Usually we r in same cab most of the time) so that was a bummer.

And evening was bad too, had to do mandatory post OT in order to complete the training.

Hopefully we'll be graduating by tomorrow. People I intend to talk today couldn't spend any time with them. So that was something I feel sad about. Other than that... I guess everything was alright and good.

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

New friends at Work Place, My Life is just getting started.

Its hardly been a month at my work place and I already have made over a dozen friends,. Few close, few still in progress. Most of all there are two special people that I've met, one of them my team mate and the other one is from totally diff floor and diff dept.

We all get to meet during the breaks, while we go grab a coffee together. People I've met so far are very sweet and friendly. Never did I feel out of place in their company. They are the greatest source of laughter in office.

A few might be little too close to heart because they understand me and are very open to any discussions. I hope it stays like that .. without any misunderstandings. Always wanted to go to parties and movie with team mates, hope that day comes soon. :)

Selfless act of Love

Few days back a friend offered me food, I didn't took my lunch to office that day. I don't know what it is, but to me food has always been the way to my heart. 

Those people that like to feed others really have a special kind of soul. She made something with her own hands and work, bought it with her own money, and give it to me just because. Nobody is obligated to feed you unless you're a child, so cooking someone food is a true and selfless act of love.

Sunday, October 18, 2015

The Illusion of Free Will " TEDxUCIrvine

Science tells us what we can know, but what we can know is little, and if we forget how much we cannot know we become insensitive to many things of very great importance. Theology, on the other hand, induces a dogmatic belief that we have knowledge where in fact we have ignorance, and by doing so generates a kind of impertinent insolence towards the universe. 

Twitter Probably won't end up like MySpace

Twitter has been undergoing some tough times lately with some 10% of their employees being laid off and struggling to find a CEO before settling on co-founder Jack Dorsey. I believe that Twitter has some unassailable competitive moats that will allow it to maintain its current standing as the go to source for breaking news:

Saturday, October 17, 2015

My thoughts grew up when

I started reading from an early age and lived the lives of adults vicariously through novels/stories. I remember even at the age of seven or eight feeling a sense of disconnection from the other kids at school and a certain dissonance between my mind and child body. This caused me to feel, at the time, that I wasn't a child.

In retrospect, of course, I know that I was a child. I can chart, looking back, the stages of development. But that sense that I wasn't a child makes the transition out of childhood hard to pinpoint. This realization crawled down my stomach like a cold, fat eel. It scared me, the sudden awareness that before me stretched out a finite plane of time and whose end would be my end. No escape. And the loneliness of it all.

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Survival Skills & Tools

The absolute best survival technique in any situation is to keep yourself as healthy as possible before an emergency happens. You're not outrunning zombies if you're pushing 3 bills. If you've got COPD, type-2 diabetes, or jacked-up blood pressure, you're immediately at a disadvantage once the poles reverse, electricity stops working, and the dead start climbing out of their graves. 

Sunday, October 11, 2015

Thoughts on Weekend

I often daydream about being in my late 30s or so and having "made it" in life - great wife and kids, nice house, a border collie I jog with in the evenings, family holidays, a well-paying job I enjoy, close circle of friends...

It's actually incredibly mundane, I know, but it's a healthy break from fantasising about zombie apocalypses and winning arguments I had several weeks ago.

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Do Half Zombie Human Hybrids Exist?

Yes Demi-Zombies, aka Human-Zombie Hybrids, do exist.  There are a handful of anecdotes found in ancient scrolls apart of the private collections of secret societies.  However the only known living case, and verified Demi-Zombie is our dropped out biology student Ms. Ayesha.

Her limited predecessors mentioned in ancient documents tended to be far less intelligent, and rather unpredictable.

Friday, October 9, 2015

Feel Good Today

Spreading Positivity: Saying hello to strangers. Holding doors open for people. Complimenting strangers (and actually meaning it). Doing something that will make someone laugh a little. I try to encourage people and find the best in them. I find it motivates people a lot more when you build them up for what they do right rather than breaking them down and berate them for what they did wrong.

Idk I like seeing people happy, even when I'm having a shitty day. It makes me feel like I did something productive and significant.

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

When I feel Insecure

It always seems like whenever I'm with friends I get insecure and intimidated when my friend talks to others. I feel incredibly foolish, especially since I know it's nothing, but nonetheless I get jealous.

When I'm feeling insecure or helpless, what I do is simple: I think, or rather stop and look around at those around me. I observe everyone else's situation. I'm not talking about something like, "Hey, at least my life isn't this bad!" type of deal. At the end of the day, that doesn't make me feel good, normal or confident.

No, what really comforts me is that everybody knows nothing. No one person out there can see the future, no one person out there knows exactly what they're doing with their lives. And I focus on that when I'm down. I focus on that and take comfort from it. These people don't know what they're doing, why should I ? And anyone who expects me to know doesn't know themselves. In short, stop. Look around. Realize that no one knows.

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Looking forward to Travel places (preferably not alone !)

It is wonderful to be alive. There's so much to experience in life. So much.

Travel is an excellent way to experience the infinite wonders in this world. There are 7 continents, 5 oceans, 193 countries and over 13,000 ethnic groups.

Imagine tasting different kinds of ethnic cuisine, or walking through an ethnic neighborhood in other countries. Even buying snacks in a foreign shop is exhilarating. No two travel experiences are the same.

It's all about culture shock. And it feels so good!

Sunday, October 4, 2015

Lalu stirs up Caste Controversy

I can't believe that in a time when elections were being fought on development agenda, or at least on talks about development and Digital India and Clean energy, this one thug called Lalu Yadav and his band of buffoons that is the RJD have managed to draw back the entire agenda to Caste and Religion politics.
And here we thought Bihar had finally become literate and aware enough.

One dirty fish... Or in the case of Bihar, one dirty state... Bihar will single handedly manage to ruin it for entire country if Biharis don't get off their fat asses now.

Friday, October 2, 2015

Miss being a Kid

I think everybody misses being a kid. What I miss the most about being a kid is going out to play football in the fields.

Everyday around 5 pm, all the kids in the neighborhood used to do this. We would split teams and play, and play passionately. And it was so much fun.

We'd play everyday, even in the rains, and the ground would get all mushy, and the ball would get stuck in the puddles, and man did we have fun.

And around 7 pm, it would start to become dark so we'd just sit down in a circle and talk for a while, and then go home really tired. And I'd have to enter through the back door cos I'd always be really dirty after playing, and have a hot shower.

Then we stopped cos life got in the way in the form of college and work. But those days playing football in the fields are still some of the sweetest memories I have.

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Hyderabad Man Duped Flipkart Of Rs 20 Lakh, By Exploiting Company's Item Return Policy

Leading e-commerce portal Flipkart was taken for a ride by a Hyderabad youth, who is said to have duped the company for over Rs 20 lakh.

The youth, Veera Swamy, 32, of Vanasthalipuram in the city allegedly duped the company by booking orders and returning the goods upon delivery. He would place the orders for valuable electronic items in the name of mother, father, wife, brothers and other known people in the neighbourhood. After the items were delivered, he would call up the call centre complaining that the goods delivered were of poor quality.